The Purple Lady, An Explanation, My Passion
Yes i admit i am obsessed with The Purple Ladies,but i have my reasons for it and i am writing this to try and explain what drives me as a person regarding the fundraising i do.
Quite a while ago now i found myself in a horrid situation,my daughter was ill, she made me keep a promise that by confiding in me things tht she was going through i would look after her,as a mam would but that i couldnt tell anybody else :-/, What she was experiencing was her eating disorder dominating her life,i found myself isolated,feeling alone scared and uninformed with no idea on where or who to contact for help.Toni-Leigh was deteriorating in front of me physically aswell as mentally,socially etc and i was helpless,couldnt be the mam she deserved and fix it,the kiss it and make it better scenario of childhood wasn't workable
,i then was faced with my daughter making a suicide attempt although a bad time it did get the support help required by professionals,i was no longer alone in the fight and heres where i found my introduction on a large scale to Eating Disorders,it was a BIG hello to anorexia,bullemia & body dysmorphic disorder.A couple of months after this incident Toni-Leighs physical condition deteriorated further when she caught a very nasty chest infection,which due to her bio chemistry and her lack of immunity due to her eating disorders it was quite a nasty 1 and it was during this episode it was explained to me how ill my daughter was,at the rate of deterioration her body was going through she had only 32 weeks left to live then her body would just give in she was dying,slowly,and along with the certain death was the daily worry that at any moment her heart would stop and that would be the end,no warning,no pains prior just stop.As a mum to hear this left me reeling and a whole host of mixed emotions with me probably not doing much more than crying,then i suppose probably in part to the bipolar i live with,i had to come upp with a solution,had to help fix her theoretically kiss n make it better and thats where The Purple Lady took over my alter ego,the mask i wear,and frm me n Westwood talkin to her about her 18th and giving her anything she wanted to the thing id beg for her to go to,the 1 thing every school leaver should go to,her prom,the thing she was too ill physically and mentally to attend,also the thing she believed she was too fat and ugly too get a nice dress for.I remember crying when looking through her friends prom pics and comments because my princess hadnt had her night.Imagine going from no future to she was discussing a year away,ive made her promise she'll be here to attend and she loves me so i believe she will try her best not to let me down but to see into the year and involve Toni-Leigh meant id achieved a positive the drs had given her less than a year but i had gained a year,a year for her to get the help she needs physically and mentally,Toni-Leigh is still poorly and faces her ongoing daily battle where i choose to focus myself 100% on The Purple Ladies it is my distraction from obsessing about the situation,the fundraising gets it instead,and i feel the more successful i am with The Purple Ladies thn im not letting my daughter down,success for the purple ladies is success for me as a mum trying to save my daughter,and i want to try and help make sure that no parent or carer goes through the feelings of isolation and fear that i did,Raising awareness of eating disorders really is vital on a number of levels,but too mention it again i need help raffle donations would be fantastic.The fundraising events we run arent free we pay for thm some more thn others but we do have costs to cover and i get little if any response from emails i send,ive asked shops for donations and have been turned down,even having to pay too have our charity balloons blown up.PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if you can help no matter how small it would be invaluable,even sharing our group/events invite page.
I hope this provides some insight into my drive & passion for what im doing and to those that prefer not openly reject what im doing or criticize me please feel free to explain to me why?,what ive done and then maybe ask yourself what you would do if it where your child,brother,sister best friend etc,Im always willing to listen to any advice
Nikki x
Quite a while ago now i found myself in a horrid situation,my daughter was ill, she made me keep a promise that by confiding in me things tht she was going through i would look after her,as a mam would but that i couldnt tell anybody else :-/, What she was experiencing was her eating disorder dominating her life,i found myself isolated,feeling alone scared and uninformed with no idea on where or who to contact for help.Toni-Leigh was deteriorating in front of me physically aswell as mentally,socially etc and i was helpless,couldnt be the mam she deserved and fix it,the kiss it and make it better scenario of childhood wasn't workable
,i then was faced with my daughter making a suicide attempt although a bad time it did get the support help required by professionals,i was no longer alone in the fight and heres where i found my introduction on a large scale to Eating Disorders,it was a BIG hello to anorexia,bullemia & body dysmorphic disorder.A couple of months after this incident Toni-Leighs physical condition deteriorated further when she caught a very nasty chest infection,which due to her bio chemistry and her lack of immunity due to her eating disorders it was quite a nasty 1 and it was during this episode it was explained to me how ill my daughter was,at the rate of deterioration her body was going through she had only 32 weeks left to live then her body would just give in she was dying,slowly,and along with the certain death was the daily worry that at any moment her heart would stop and that would be the end,no warning,no pains prior just stop.As a mum to hear this left me reeling and a whole host of mixed emotions with me probably not doing much more than crying,then i suppose probably in part to the bipolar i live with,i had to come upp with a solution,had to help fix her theoretically kiss n make it better and thats where The Purple Lady took over my alter ego,the mask i wear,and frm me n Westwood talkin to her about her 18th and giving her anything she wanted to the thing id beg for her to go to,the 1 thing every school leaver should go to,her prom,the thing she was too ill physically and mentally to attend,also the thing she believed she was too fat and ugly too get a nice dress for.I remember crying when looking through her friends prom pics and comments because my princess hadnt had her night.Imagine going from no future to she was discussing a year away,ive made her promise she'll be here to attend and she loves me so i believe she will try her best not to let me down but to see into the year and involve Toni-Leigh meant id achieved a positive the drs had given her less than a year but i had gained a year,a year for her to get the help she needs physically and mentally,Toni-Leigh is still poorly and faces her ongoing daily battle where i choose to focus myself 100% on The Purple Ladies it is my distraction from obsessing about the situation,the fundraising gets it instead,and i feel the more successful i am with The Purple Ladies thn im not letting my daughter down,success for the purple ladies is success for me as a mum trying to save my daughter,and i want to try and help make sure that no parent or carer goes through the feelings of isolation and fear that i did,Raising awareness of eating disorders really is vital on a number of levels,but too mention it again i need help raffle donations would be fantastic.The fundraising events we run arent free we pay for thm some more thn others but we do have costs to cover and i get little if any response from emails i send,ive asked shops for donations and have been turned down,even having to pay too have our charity balloons blown up.PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE if you can help no matter how small it would be invaluable,even sharing our group/events invite page.
I hope this provides some insight into my drive & passion for what im doing and to those that prefer not openly reject what im doing or criticize me please feel free to explain to me why?,what ive done and then maybe ask yourself what you would do if it where your child,brother,sister best friend etc,Im always willing to listen to any advice
Nikki x
